Facing a fear is a strange thing, at least for me. I’m scared of heights and I get major anxiety even in the most simple and of situations. I know that my fears are irrational and I’m on a mission to conquer them. I don’t want to be a wimp, I don’t want to miss out on amazing things because of this silliness.
The ZipWorld zipwires might not seem like much to most people but the mere thought made me want to bail on a trip I knew I’d love and totally needed.
Hearing people who’d experienced it made me feel better and I almost felt excited but the time came to strap into those harnesses and I wanted to be sick. I was baffled at everyone’s nonchalance. WHY AREN’T YOU GRIPPED WITH ABJECT TERROR?
I went first because I knew if I didn’t, I’d bottle it. You’re told to get into the press up position over a metal grate overlooking the zipwire run. There wasn’t a huge amount of distance to the end but it still looked high and fast.
You then stick your bum up, get strapped in and settle into your harness. This is where it gets real. You let the harness take your weight and you’re hanging, looking down the way you’re about to travel. My brain was just going SHIT SHIT SHIT. At this point I thought of saying no but I couldn’t be the one the chicken out.
3, 2, 1.
I’m flying. It’s terrifying then it’s amazing I’m bloody superman. FLYING.
I get to the end, the brakes go on and I grab the hand of the person who will pull me to safety (get me down).
“Hello!” She says cheerfully as I grab her hand from above.
“Hi!” I reply in a haze of adrenaline.
I disembark from my wire and stumble back to the little enclosure that’s for people to recover in. Most of me felt this: “yes yes yes. I get to do this again. Let’s go! Shit, three times faster. Shit.”
Then we jumped in a Landrover and began the ascent. Quite the climb, my ears popped more than once. The view from the top was amazing but so high. SO HIGH. I went first again but the anticipation was more than doubled because we had to wait for clearance from the bottom for ages. Just dangling there, ready to throw myself across a quarry.
Finally we had the all go.
3, 2, 1.
It was amazing but then the speed started to build and my stomach started to flip. There’s a weird sensation as the quarry drops away and you’re travelling straight and then a little uphill across the lake. I started to lose my straight line trajectory and was listing to one side but I made a point of looking at everything around me. What a view.
Fear god damn conquered.
I really haven’t felt that scared in a long while but the sense of achievement I feel now in having done both zip wires is immense. I can do anything.
Oh, we got it all on video too…